Last night I was still looking at the clock at 4 am! 😩
My mind would not shut off. It bounced from subject to subject with no thought of slowing down for that elixir we call sleep.
Thinking…Planning…Plotting…always moving.
I just wanted it to stop.
Here’s the thing, this has been an issue for me my entire adult life. I’ve never been the best sleeper and I suppose it didn’t help when I worked shift work and drank two pots of coffee a day.
I wonder what that does to a person…hmm. 🤔
But you see that’s just the kind of nonsensical thoughts that race through my mind as soon as my head hits the pillow.
I’ll go back to when I was in grade three and the teacher called on me to spell a word out in front of the class. Huge brain fart…how the hell do you sound out “the”? (This really happened.) For the life of me, I couldn’t remember how to spell “the”. 😳
Oh man…That poor little girl.
It was obviously traumatizing as it’s a moment that stuck with me and I’m now haunted by it in the middle of the night all these years later.
It’s crazy.
So then when I’m done going through all the trauma of the past, I’ll have chats in my head with my latest novel manuscript characters. This is not necessarily a bad thing because after all, they are in bed with me. 😉 lol…Actually they’re in my crowded, jumbled head where they all squeeze in and I get the opportunity to learn more about them–their likes, dreams, fears etc.
It’s always great conversations and I learn a lot–so, it’s no frikken wonder I can’t sleep–I’m too busy socializing!
And, then I’ll move to actually composing sentences and elaborate paragraphs in my head.
I’ll write the MOST brilliant of sentences–oh I can’t tell you how great they are because they are so out of this world. They’re worthy of a Pulitzer until I go to write them down and nothing comes out the same.
It’s like dribble and gibberish. Errr. Drives me nuts.
My brain won’t stop writing and creating no matter what I do. I guess it’s just the curse of My Twisted Writer Brain. I’ve now gone emoji crazy too. I need 😴 Where’s 🧸?
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Unlike you, I sleep deeply most nights—after many years of insomnia— and it’s my dream life that stokes daytime envy: My elaborate dreams are so wildly creative, i wish I could transfer them wholesale into writing. But like your paragraphs composed at 3 am, the best seem to evaporate by morning!
Thanks for the comments Marilyn. Yes…when those brilliant paragraphs fade into nothingness I want to cry. lol…not really BUT it is amazing how so many of us do that. The writer brain I guess.
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lol…you are a sassy girl. xoxo